Tuesday, July 4th, 2006
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2:04 pm
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So i ate little for 2 weeks and lost 4lb then cause it was my birthday weekend binged on whatever the hell i wanted and lost 3lb
how does this work.. seriously?
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Tuesday, June 27th, 2006
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12:25 pm
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my diet fads are so funny.. i've been doing my jade goody workout.. (HA HA!) for a week and been eating good and i lost 4lb.. so im pretty happy!!
this journal must laugh at my diet attempts..
maybe i will turn it into a movie one day..
Jennifer aniston could play me.. or maybe toni collette i think shes pretty super cool, mostly just cause she was in muriels wedding
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Tuesday, April 11th, 2006
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6:07 pm
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I kinda got bored of the whole.. not eating thing and starting eating.. and only put on like 4lb which is jack shit..
Err so im on this special k diet.. and im not sure its going to work but i tell you im so so sick of it..
only lost like 1/2lb in 4 days.. not happy.. it was easier when i wasnt eating.. but then again.. it really wasnt..
I wanna wear skinny jeans!
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Sunday, February 12th, 2006
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10:36 pm
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Thursday, February 9th, 2006
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6:49 pm
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my life is fucked and my tooth just cracked
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Friday, February 3rd, 2006
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11:56 am
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So last night i went home with a fuck the world attitude
"its my fucking body.. if i want fucking pizza i will eat it"
So i ordered a large mighty meaty from dominos and sat impatiently as it was being made telepathically urging the people making it to work faster.
ran home and started to devour it, tom took a few slices but wasnt fast enough so halfway through the pizza i purged.. then went back for some more.
how fucking stupid!!
so i can eat what i want but the price tag is that i have to purge.. thats it.
and i havent put on any weight.. thankyou god :)
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Thursday, February 2nd, 2006
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1:09 pm
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i knew i would jinx myself if i said i hadnt binged yet.
i ate loads.. (or what i perceive to be loads) last night and purged it all.
i have no perspective on how much is to much but i knew when i was eating i was overdoing it cause my stomach was hurting.
i just need food so bad, its really all messing me up.
so what ive lost a stone.. whats the price tag?
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Tuesday, January 31st, 2006
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8:32 pm
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i've managed to keep under 400 calories.. probably less a day.. for the last 3 weeks.
I kinda feel a binge coming on.. havent binged in 3 weeks tho.. salad is not binge food!
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10:01 am
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Monday, January 30th, 2006
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8:49 pm
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6:34 pm - wipe your eyes and know that you're better than that..
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yeah so i fucking fucking hate tom so much right now..
he shoved me face first into a wall...
my chin has a huge bruise on it and i have claw marks and bites over me.
how fucking dare he talk to me like that?
who the fuck does he think he is.. its fucking ridiculous.
i could kill him, i want him to hurt as much as he has hurt me.
the anger burns up my veins.
and on top of that, and graham dying.. im platuing still.. theres only so many times i can blame it on my body changing size..
ive eaten jack shit today and put on a lb.
fuck it fuck arrggh.
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Sunday, January 29th, 2006
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9:13 pm
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i have to do this.. it means so much to me.
i have to.
im gonna lose tom otherwise
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4:52 pm
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Yeah so apparently breaking free from you platue means you can eat 3 slices of pizza..
i fucking deserve to be 11.3 again tomorrow.. even 11.4.
fat fuck.
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Friday, January 27th, 2006
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1:27 pm
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im on a platue of 11.3 and its really really starting to fuck me off.
im really really glad i have a day off today because it means i can spend the whole day concentrating on not eating and go down the gym for longer..
by the way eating egg white.. is a blessing..
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Wednesday, January 25th, 2006
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6:49 pm
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i keep a book diary on me like.. at all times with a weight chart and stuff in now so i dont update on here half as much as i should.
basically i have lost a stone.. or 14lbs in the last 2 weeks..
i've been heavily restricting and purging evening meals for ages now.. i've managed to get down to uner 300 calories a day which is ace.
except today i worked a 12 hour shift and fucked it up totally.
half a piece of toast and jam, 2 cans of redbull.. which is like 90 calories in itself.
3 crumpets at 70 calories a piece and i had some salad for dinner...
errr.. i think my string of losing a pound a day had finally come to an end.
haha oh fuckity fuck.
im so not going to be 11.2 tomorrow.. i'll be lucky if im even 11.3 again.
and i had to be up at 5 this morn and only got a few hours sleep..
i'd go to the gym but its an effort even being on the computer.
life goes on.. i just cant do anymore fuck ups.
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Friday, January 20th, 2006
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8:48 pm
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ive lost half a stone in a week!
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Saturday, September 10th, 2005
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10:21 am
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i really miss this journal. i've turned into a control freak again after all thats been going on.
lost 4pounds this week.
Not loads but good enough for someone whos been gorging for 5 months.
everyone has kicked up about it.
Its exciting.
I feel powerful.
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Thursday, September 8th, 2005
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11:59 am
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i've lost 4 pounds in four days.
not eating is making me delirious.
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Thursday, June 2nd, 2005
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9:19 pm
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I'm back.
Lets fight.
current mood:  amused
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Friday, April 8th, 2005
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5:24 pm - I have an opinion
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Mutherfucking son of a fucking bitch.
What is peoples fucking problems.
Jesus christ.
What makes me even angrier is the fact people are so fucking hypocritical and their arguments are based on their own fucking insecurities.
Anyway, moving on.
My weights been balancing on ok recently but i need to pull my shit together and stop falling off the wagon.
I've been ok recently.
Except for Tom dumps me now like.. practically everyday, then treats me like a prostitute.. fucks me and kicks me out the house.
"Stop fucking crying? Why are you crying? You're not getting sympathy from anyone"
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